Saturday, December 03, 2005
Last blogged @ 12/03/2005 12:50:00 AM

mOi laSt dAe At O&G waRd..

a bit sad lor to part with the babies at ward 42.. cuz todae is my last day at there.. n fortunately is that today get to in contact with them again.. see their cute cute expressions, crying sounds, grumbling noise and so on lor.. cuz today my teacher wan to assess me n my colleague bathing, feeding changing diapers.. haha... when i bathe one of e baby, he nv really cried a lot, instead he was enjoying cuz after his "swim" for 2 minutes, he cried abit cuz no more enjoying e water liao.. but dunno y todae feels stress n down mood... when doing parameter for e babies, i feel so stress n no end doing it like tt.. n i took bout 45min to finish 5 babies.. cuz i was afraid tt e nurse might said i was too slow n some more there was some interruption in between so end up cannot finish.. den when mdm ong came in to e room, she was about to leave for campus, den she signed our log book.. n i told her that feels like cant finish n was like no end.. n don feel like doing it.. n she scold me lor.. how can i like tt... next time when i passed out i needed to do all these also.. n cannot be so stressed becuz of this... inside me as like feeling upside down man.. i feel even more sad n stressed..i know i shdn said all these as this is my job also.. i think i need to explain to her.. at that point of time i cant sorted out my feeling n feels like crying but i controlled.. may sound silly isnt it.. i think partly is becuz i need to go for my check up at national cancer centre n tt's y i feel quite worried n stress ba.. so finally my friend came back from lunch n helped me with the parameters so i assist in feeding also lor.. n left there at 1.45 like tt..

now i can have a peace of mind ba... cuz the doctor told me e lump is nt threatening n will nt be cancerous... unless down the years i do feel pain n nt tolerable, maybe at ttt point of time i may choose to remove e lump... so next year december go check again lor.. so next appt is my renal stuffs.. $$!!! again!! haiz.. sucks... haha i was thinking maybe my life is quite short cuz seems like gt some probs here n there.. so weak like tt...

been thinking of her these few days.. esp todae i missed her a lot.. kept thinking back of the attachment during year 1 posting.. keep on listening to the music tat suits my feeling now n looking at the pictures taken with her.. everytime when i stress out or tired, i will tend to think n miss her.. hope to see her soon cuz seeing her will relieve my thoughts n stresses.. jus like having medicines.. so soothing... being a inspiration person to me is always very important to me cuz i will very very honest to tt person... i think she will know tt i missed her ya.. haha.. cuz sometime my thinking n thoughts she is able to sense it without me telling.. so... so she will be to campus doing theory teaching... n her clinical practice with her student will end todae..

so gtg go slp le.. tml gota go back campus attendin ECG course.. n work aft tt.. tired!!!! nite..