Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Last blogged @ 1/17/2006 11:56:00 PM

eMotIons mUcH moRe sEttLeD.. bEcoZ oF...

actually yesterdae i was feeling terrible inside my mind cuz very emotional.. feels like giving up n confident level dropped.. n e person i kept thinking was her.. and it is only her who can help me find back myself.. after much consideration, i decided to give her a msg telling her that i'm feeling troubled n needed to talk with her.. so she replied that she call me later.. but i supposed is late night ba.. cuz by e time she went back frm campus would be 10 plus..

after watching my fav drama show n is already 11pm.. i hav a feeling that she might forget.. so i jus replied her ok cuz when she replied call me later i didn reply.. so is a gentle reminder to her la.. den after 5 minutes, she finally called me.. den she asked what happened to me n so on lor.. mostly we discussed bout e whole year 2 posting n ways to improve the click between my groups members.. den we discussed a little bout e prev matters.. one funny thing is that.. she advised me not to hate someone n not to be enemy with "sh".. so i told her that actually we did talk le but is on nyp course stuffs n nothing else.. so she says that's gd lor.. so actually frm here, can see that she really understand how i really feel at that point of time.. mixture of anger, helpless, hatred.. of cos i will nt hate her as she also don want me to.. but we will jus be surface colleague.. n trust is only a pinch of salt to her..

Indeed, i felt much more better n emotional quite steady le.. so now trying hard to relax a bit n jus give my very best n e rest den leave it to my teacher to grade me lor.. i think my mind will be repeatin her advices as to remind myself..

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