Saturday, January 14, 2006
Last blogged @ 1/14/2006 05:30:00 PM

A ShOcKin nEw From SomeOnE!!!

actually tis shocking new issued from previous time i had big arguement with e 3 girls..

wat happen is that, yesterday i went for break with my colleague n we discuss bout our own group members lor.. cuz i m nt so happy to work with them.. they seems as thou as i did something wrong n being despised.. den i mentioned that i missed e time in year 1 attachment with M.L n the group members i worked with b4.. den suddenly she asked me if i know e case is being brought up to e section head... n i didn know at all!! so she told me actually e 3 gals did went up to my class advisor n complaint to her.. n eventually it was bring up to M.T.W.K. n ended M.L was called by her n like settle e matter with the 3 gals.. and so they were instructed nt to let me know about tis.. to think back, lucky i was nt called in if not my words will be filled with tears cuz it was really very hurting to see my 3 close friends treating me tis way n condeem me in front of section head.. so M.L announced to them that she will keep a distance from me n will slowly to let me know we r only teacher n student status n nt more than tt... i was very sad...

although tis matter happened half year back but when get to hear tis again, e trauma feeling back again.. but surely beygones be beygones, i wil nt mention anything to anyone again.. but i will DEFINITELY REMEMBER WAT UR'S HAV DONE, IS REALLY RIDICULOUS!! n i will nt hav e trust in anyone of ur again.. anyway she also think tt it is ridiculous also for doing all these... causing trouble to her n me.. of cos i still know my mistake but is really too much to create unneccessary troubles... n one terrible thing is that they tot i m a lesbian!!! how can it be?? from a close friend mouth.. they jus cant simply understand how i feel inside.. no matter how much thing i hav said.. lucky is that, i hav been straightforward to her when i get to talk to her,n she knows tt i always look up toher like my mum n so it will definitely involved e mother's love ar.. but doesnt mean she is my mum.. although sometime i do say how i wish she is my mum cuz i found someone who can understand me well n shower care n concern like a mum.. but of cos i will still remember tt she is still my teacher...

but wen thinking back, she n i still keep in contact n often we exchange messages thru sms.. she still sound concerned.. she is only e teacher whom i confide everything to her when i hav problems.. maybe also out of jealousy ba.. really disappointed to have these "friends".. n now i think most of my classmates will think i m lesbian also.. really feel very terrible inside... it seems that i can trust no one.. nvm, i still have my darlin nana... haiz..