Monday, April 10, 2006
Last blogged @ 4/10/2006 10:49:00 PM

a nOrmAl dAe bUt WiTh WoRRiEd FeEliNg...

today, monday, as usual i work noon shift.. but.. kept thinking of someone.. started on sunday actually.. we recently back 2gether again on sat but it was on a trial cuz he was really hurt by his ex-gf with lots of stupid stuffs n causes him to lose trust in gers completely.. after knowing his trauma, i really felt sorry for him.. n also wanted to love him again, to help him regain back e basic trust in gers, and to support him in ways i could.. actually, i felt really hurt to see him in tis emotional turmoil.. it reminds me of my emotional turmoils when both of us broke up past 3 years.. but now he said he wants to be alone n didn reply me any msg.. i really feel very worried for him.. n upset cuz it seems i cant do anything to help him.. n felt quite lost too.. dun really feel giving him up cuz i know he needs someone to talk to, to support.. n i really hope my presence can at least cheer him up..

when thinking back, i did actually throw my love for him to e sea or anywhere it can just dissolve.. n also substitue my love for him to hEr's... but funny that, he cames back to contact me a few times n therefore i decided to let him be my friend again.. although a lot of friends see it as a risk but sometime it jus comes like tis.. n some other factors too.. well.. my love's life is really complicated n long pathway.. sometime how i wished i can just settle down with e guy i loved.. but always lots of barrier.. haiz.. i think i m in emotional stress also..