Friday, May 12, 2006
Last blogged @ 5/12/2006 06:19:00 PM

vEsak dAe....

Today i had a unusual dream which involve hEr's and one of her former student..

Wake up with a uneasy and nasty feeling.. The whole dream was about my sincerety was not seen by hEr's.. Instead she recognize another student..

I had this unusual dream before not long ago too.. I dreamt that someone called her and she callled her baby!! ooo.. my goodness!! although it was just a dream but i wake up with very jealous feeling and immediately told my buddy..

well.. let's it be just dreams.. I just pray well for everything..

And surprised to see her in AH yesterday.. while me n my other friends were having lunch together.. and i kept smiling to her.. :D This is wat she did also.. hmz..

Been thinking and waiting for someone reply.. Dunno wat's on his mind again.. everything seems uncertain for me and him.. because of wat reasons?? him or me?? or both of us?? but what i know is that is our love bond us together again and again.. Been consoling myself upteen times and wanted to hear from him why he chose to did it again... Am i being stupid or idiot to give him chance again and again?? really dunno.. sometime dun really wan to think bout this.. haiz.. why can't i just have a partner who really loves and treasured me no mater what.. can't help envy those friends whose boyfriend really treasured them...
But i will not envy my friends have understanding and loving mother.. not because i have a mother like that, is because i have someone to look upon to as my mother which is hEr's.. Is always difficult to overcome emotional trouble and i myself hate it to the core.. but.. i will feel much better when the thoughts of her.. really..