Monday, June 19, 2006
Last blogged @ 6/19/2006 11:45:00 PM

FeelIng oF aiYo>>>.........

Haizya.. been thinking of her a lot today.. or maybe can say is everyday.. dunno why also..

Feels like talking to someone bout her but to no avail.. really very sian.. wonder how is she now?? but of cos she is doing fine i think.. but now i think i somehow know ehy i missed her sooo much liao.. cuz i have been under some kind of pressure and stress at work and it keeps me thinking of her everyday... don know whether she can feel it or not.. hopefully she does..

As i mention in my previous blog that, i will get to miss her very much when i was in great stress and in bad shape... what i will do normally is to keep looking at the pictures we took n recall the memories we had.. but the thing is, i hope to see her in person.. haiz.. i think is nt likely possible cuz she is so busy with her students in KKH.. haiz.. i also would like to go KKH to look for her but it will be very weird and funny to her... so...

well.. although i m already 21 this year, but i still enjoying the feeling when she cares for me.. maybe to her currently that, she wants me to stand independently.. I am no longer feel the happiness in my family.. i felt numb... haiz... sad to say that..

Felt like i m talking nonsense like tt.. felt like i need someone to love me.. but only her presense can make me feel better.. but.. haiz...