Thursday, June 22, 2006
Last blogged @ 6/22/2006 07:30:00 PM

STreSseS frOm dIffeRenT fActoRs......

whenever i voice out my stress to some of my friends, there's always a similar phrase - " it is an part and parcel of life"...

Well.. this logic or phrase can only console us for a moment and be used to it.. but sometime, is still the best to seek a listener who you can trust very much.. == well.. i had 2 of my loved ones..==

First, my family financial.. it always been a problem and it doesnt seems to have any much changes or better... still, i will be the one gets hurt by my parents in terms of advantage.. i know i may sound very complaining or troubling but is really dishearten and sort of lost hope in them.. i really cant find and feel any happiness when at home.. and even worst when i see them especially back from work.. even though, my brother is a victim currently.. he was "aimed" by my mum.. just imagine he is still having his 'O' level this year, works as a part time waiter but still my mum will take some of his pay.. i really sympathy with my brother.. especially when i get to eye on the situation, i am really upset and very disappointed with my mum.. how can she? I don hate her but "DISHEARTEN"..
Then bout my father, is another disappointed person to me.. he actually priortise his money on redemption of old jewelleries rather than wanting my mum to help me clear their previous utilities bill... they are the one who accumulate the overdue amounts and now is bout 520 to be cleared.. There's actually 2 ways to clear the debts: (1) followed the scheduled instalment of $50 per month plus current outstanding amt and it will take me for another 10 months to clear it..
(2) to have their help to give me at least 150 to 200 for this n next month so that it can be cleared in shorter period..
And now is not the matter of i refused to help them, is just that i still have my own instalment to pay and needed to put aside money for savings... if you can understand my situation, i will be glad too.. if not, thanks very much for just listening to it..

Secondly, is my work stress...
I am and will be stress because i was still very new to the ward n needs time to get used of the daily routine.. the workload is terrible.. initially i broke down in the ward but after voice out to my ward sister, her assurance comfort me down.. Therefore, i just prayed to God that i will be all right and able to cope with everything within time..

Lastly, is..... but not really considered very stress la... but just have to let's nature takes it course...

As usual, i misses her daily.. desperate to see her pop out on my face.. haha.. wanting her motherly love, concern... wish to hug her longer than usual to have her warmth and love which i really lacking of.... wanting to tell her personally that how much i love her.. hmz... it may sound quite ridiculous but is true... GOD!! the power of love is wonderful!!