Tuesday, July 18, 2006
Last blogged @ 7/18/2006 10:36:00 PM

How am i GoinG to b Strong??

Damn it.. felt so down again... what the heck inside me?? or to say actually i been feeling down all the while is just that it become so numb... hmz.. is really numb.. everyday just go to work n work hard.. really hard.. no time to think bout anything.. but when there's time for myself, thoughts came in, n it strike my emotions again...

I just saw him online this evening but after a while his nick disappear as it appear offline.. well.. dunno wats up into him... but his nick was like counting down again.. seems like havin papers again... but to me is like... no comments... am i still consider attached or single?? dunno wats on his mind again.. is not like his usual self leh.. n now our communication really seems down the drain... both of us kept busy with our stuffs n work... haiz.. dunno when will we be able to get back in whole piece again...

oh dear!! i really misses hEr's a lot... today i just seen a car looks like hers but different car plate.. so too bad la... but i was thinking, how can she be here when she needs to do teaching in campus now.. I've been thinking too much of her... but frankly speaking, having to have time with her is already satisfied cuz she is just practically my precious ones.. wishes to see her badly!! even now i dunno whether i m still stress or wat cuz i just don feel much... or izit numb?? probably.. i guess so.. felt so cold within me... cant stand it....

Lord.. please give me strength to be strong..