Sunday, July 09, 2006
Last blogged @ 7/09/2006 10:02:00 PM

ReallY at loSt....

What should i do?? really felt desperate n lost practically every day..

Really envy my friend boyfriend treat them like precious n treasure them as they could.... to make time to meet up each other.. for me?? sometime after work i would just change to home clothes n act as if i have dates but actually i don have.. either go back home or went to buy some foods.. really felt so lonely!! is getting meaningless..

Currently, he just finished his exam n i tot he wil be more free.. but never did i expect that he told me he had project to rush n gt no time for me cuz he will be staying in sch most of the time.. Felt as if i gt no boyfriend at all.. Almost every day, i questioned myself that do i meant anything in his heart or mind?? or am i being too nice that he is so comfortable till take for granted again... i really hate ppl take me for granted... but is just all doubts... how do i know... wanted to meet him but it seems difficult.. how sia.. Should i make any decision?? i really dunno...

My life now is lessly motivated.. everyday stress and tired.. but carried with a mind of hoping to see her one day... i really wished!!!!!

WHERE ARE MY LOVED ONES??? I am lonely and helpless... What a liFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!