Friday, July 21, 2006
Last blogged @ 7/21/2006 10:53:00 PM

SparrOwhAwk ExerCise!!! Orange AlerT..

Yea.. today had my first day of sparrowhawk exercise in the ward.. it was a good experience although it was not comfortable wearing the gown and the N95 mask.. Is like my sweat accumulated in the mask n i cant just take it off to ventilate it.. will be considered contaminated.. so all the staffs wear it for a few starting from 11am to 3pm.. so we stand down(means the exercise had stopped). but tomorrow had to wear it again from 11am.. lucky is only for 2 days... if not.. very uncomfortable and terrible.. and haha.. my ward today had bout 25 patients out of 43 beds.. quite relaxed thought but later in evening, my side have 2 admissions but slightly busy lor.. but still all rite...

Happen i get to have this admission of this young lady, married status.. only 25 this year.. so i get to have some information from his spouse.. she was warded cuz panadol overdose.. so she was trying to suicide at her place 11th floor.. and furthermore, she had depression cuz of their marital issue.. and her husband told me that actually they are arranging for separation.. i was quite shocked in my mind and felt pity for the patient.. although i do not know bout their personal issue but inside me i felt very sad and scare... i have a thought suddenly that i don wish to get marry.. it seems very scary..

When during dinner break with my colleague( staff nurse), i get to know that she actually divorce with her husband a few years back.. i was really shocked.. cuz she herself have 3 children and i always thought that she had a blissful and good family life.. but never did i expect that her husband had an affair outside... and that happen when my colleague were pursuing her diploma course in nyp as she started to sense that her husband behaviour changed... before their marriage, they were very loving.... haiz.. love life is so unpredictable!!

No matter how beautiful a wife can maintain, man always have chance to have affair outside... so wats the real reason of guys having affair outside?? I think is their mentally needs.. but is really selfish of them especially when they have children.. Women always the ones to lose out... Women always the ones to receive pain and learn to tolerate.. but MENS??? always the ones who benefits their physically needs.. i really cant control myself of labelling them real 'BASTARDS'..

But still, i have 2 colleagues pregnant and 2 colleagues getting married.. felt envy initial but after hearing n seeing the experience, i am scared already... really...

Is he still my choice?? Have to reconsider again.. but definitely, she is still the one i loved most and no regret in that.. And i don mind spending my effort on hEr's...