Thursday, July 27, 2006
Last blogged @ 7/27/2006 11:43:00 PM

ThOugHts i Had DurIng bUs jOurnEy....

Kept recalling monday that i met her... I can never forget her closeness and concerns.. To me, she is genuine sweet, kind-hearted, caring and thoughtful person.. Every meet up with her seems insufficient.. perphaps i am greedy.. but will start misses her again.. she also verbalise that she is very direct to me than other students.. well... it sounds that she is comfortable and frank with me or in another word - doesnt want to have any misunderstanding in our communication... i am of cos very glad to hear that.. And she mentioned that, of me to her is still like a children... so wat does it mean?? hmz..
She is very important to me to the extend that it felt like even though i cant have a guy who loves me as much, i can still move on or not think about it.. currently, for what i know is, she had fulfilled my mind and heart... she can consider the first person which i felt this special.. In the past, i used to think that my guy fullfilled me, but not as currently... cuz i am not able to trust him as what i used to trust him in the past.. instead i felt quie insecure by him at the moment and don know whether wil we last?? She is that important cuz i know i can 100% trust her by knowing her tis few years.. I know she will not hurt me as she don wish so cuz she is concerned..
To my acknowledgement, she is the one who i loved the most.. I am very sure bout it as numerous of things happened between my family n him.. and the trust is gone but to entrust completely to her..
Now she is in my hospital for 3 weeks, i really hope i can see her almost everyday and to brighten up more my days n spiritual...
For my blog readers, it may sounds quite ridiculous for me to love a teacher.. but i have my reasons and thoughts to have it this way.. Everyone needs love and something to hold on to no matter what happen.. so is just the same concept as what i am expriencing now.. I believe is God arrangement...