Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Last blogged @ 8/30/2006 10:27:00 PM

mY pRobLem rEflecTin agAin...

well.. i was engrossed in my channel 8 local drama at 9pm and on the other hand i was relating to my relationship problem too.. i was exactly experiencing bgr issue just like the actress "melissa and norman".. They didnt start off in the 1st place.. melissa had a liking in norman, but to norman it is just another fling cuz he doesnt wan to settle down as in marriage.. but somehow or rather, norman had a liking in melissa and they finally got together.. but after a short period, norman was giving melissa cold shoulder and seems in confusion.. and ended broke up.. she just felt there is no different between having a boyfriend and being single..

Ever since early july till now, we didn meet out at all... only get to meet in msn for less than 3 times till now... and even he online, what he was interested was something else which i am very unhappy bout it.. at times, i really do feel like scolding him but i didnt cuz i wanted a meetup for confront.. now he is having vacation as he just finishes his exam but still he didnt contact me... not even msn... n i think his cousin just came back from oversea cuz he said it.. i dunno whether true or not..

The whole pissed off thing is that, his school is very near to my workplace yet i didn see him have the initiative to come and look for me.. Then i would rather him to study at other polytechnic.. Seriously speaking, he make me lose almost all my confidence in this relationship.. is this how you treasured the relationship or loved ones? To my instint, he may lose the interest or his love for me had faded long ago... i kept telling myself not to think bout it as i cant do anything to it but dunno somehow it came back to me again... i just felt very down again... damn it!! I am really tired.. tired of waiting... in the end what kind of treatment do i get?? haiz.. what should i do?? i just know that, inside my mind, heart and soul was crying badly.. treat him so good le from the beginning till now.. always trying my best to make him feel happy, blessed and fortunate.. but in the end, i am always the one to suffer.. enough is enough.. should i just end this draggy relationship?? if it really happens, Jesus, Pls give me the strength and courage to end it if really needed.. Pls..

Just looking forward to meet her as soon as possible..