Thursday, September 28, 2006
Last blogged @ 9/28/2006 10:43:00 PM

FelT sTress WhEn.....

Well... i mention stress not because of my work, family or relationship... hee~
Actually it is just a pre-stress symptoms la... tomorrow is her students last week of attachment as they will be going back to simei campus for their year 2.2.. 3 months is really very fast.. from the moment i was looking forward to see her in AH till now she has to go school for teaching.. of cos i did treasured the times i had with her like meeting for tea or lunch at AH canteen, but times will just flies... i felt slightly unpartable within me.. although i know that she may be back to AH again but still yet to know... but this time is much more better, as in when i was a year 1 student attachment in nuh, i felt very sad and would really wished that she is back to campus to teaches us... but the arrangement for her was to continue with another batch of students at AH.. I felt so uncomfortable till i called her at early nites and ask to meet her the next day.. she agreed.. And so i expressed my feelings towards her that i felt very sad and cant bear to be apart.. my eyes are filled with tears and so i saw her slight tears in her eyes.. it was indeed a touching memory.. it really takes me a lot of courage to tell her.. at that time, i only know that i need to tell and let her knows..

Well, this time round, i felt a bit sad also but not to the extend that i will cry.. Thought of having tea with her and updates her some stuffs regardin the church.. i just called her once but she didn answer... probably she's just back from work or showering.. I don know whether am i being too much in liking to have tea with her although she is a busy woman.. but i just hope to see n chat a bit before she goes back to campus for months.. And actually i realised that i will get slightly stressed n tensed up when i am calling her.. my heart will start to pulpate faster and feeling more warmer.. one reason is that, i afraid that i might disturb her.. hmz... i think i will call her once again..

Dear Lord, you knows and understand clearly of what i have in my thinkings. Do you think we have the chance to meet up tomorrow? I would like to be contented, Lord. Amen.