Friday, October 06, 2006
Last blogged @ 10/06/2006 12:55:00 PM

tHougHts afTer tHougHts.....

Is a good day for me to rest at home.. to recover my body nutrition and physical strain.. So i seek her advice to cook porridge and drank the residue.. As usual i viewed his friendster profile and saw his new updated picture.. it provoked me to think of 'irritating' when i saw his latest picture..

As for me and him, we did not contact each other anymore.. even though he does park his nick in msn, stil we doesnt chat unless he just said hi to me.. and yes i do consider that we have broke up.. To him, it might be just a dunno status.. which i hate the answer most.. Not being together may be the right choice as i do not need to think and worry bout wat will happen to us.. is really very tiring.. n somemore he does not shown any effort in wanting to be together... giving excuses for not meeting...

To one of my cousin, she felt that i can let him go just as peacefully is mainly because of i used to it and have somehow prepared the feelings for it... deeply in my thoughts and mind, there must be a strong hold or faith on someone that i can let go of him peacefully.. if not i wouldn be that strong.. There's 2 answer to it which is hEr's and God.. God did give me the directions on whether is he worth my love, time and sacrifice.. but whether to give up is still depends on me.. Is not that i want to mention hEr's everytime, but this time round, she really gave me a true experience of love.. It definitely a different kind of love.. A motherly love and a relationship love.. but when comes to loves, it does accompany with time, sacrifice and efforts if not it will not be enduring.. isn't it? of cos i dare not say that she loves me too, but at least i could see the effort in her in comforting and full of showering of emotions to me..

Haa.... after searching for motherly love for some while last 2 years, i finally stay put on hEr's.. First is cindy mummy, second is angie auntie and lastly is mdm lydia lau....

That's why hardly people can understand me.. except weina and hEr's..

Kept recalling how concerned she sound when she called me yesterday... I am really glad and console enough..