Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Last blogged @ 11/15/2006 11:17:00 PM

mY 3rd dAe of Rest...

Went out with serene to town for lunch and shopped for her shoes.. went to far east plaza.. and we are looking forward to buy bubble tea after the shopping.. yeah.. *winks*

As usual, been thinking of something these few days... keep reviewing my actions and feeling towards her.. Probably i been demanding too much out of it as i know that we could be even more closer.. but i think this perception leads me to unstable emotional turmoils at times which is unhealthy i suppose.. Honestly, i don like to make assumptions regarding feelings but at times i still will make assumptions of it to make myself feels better or to guess an answer..

I should felt very blessed cuz her little actions means a lot... She brought me a lovely bible and a soothing christian album.. made her efforts in coming for my birthday celebration, being very concerned bout my health when i m sick, always wanted to see me being blessed, being my important witness for my acception of Jesus Christ and many more.. it may sounds more like what a good teacher should be fulfilled as but i am sure some of the events happened between us will make it as a special relationship, more than teacher - student..

I think i shouldnt have continue preaching on my "wanted" topic - which is god mother - daughter relationship.. I have realised that it added on my stress cuz her every little action really bothered me a lot as i care damn much bout it.. since she herself also knew that i have this wish.. I have carried too much hope in it and thought that we would reach that relationship sooner after i graduate... but i was wrong.. instead, to her, we are just starting to become closer as there is less restriction since i am not her student now... Initially, i was in denial state and ended myself in unnescessary stress.. I should fully let God brings our fate closer and be it always. Amen.

As one of my friend mention, i am one of her greatest follower's.. i shall and always be..