Monday, December 11, 2006
Last blogged @ 12/11/2006 10:57:00 PM

Back to work after rest days...

Went to e-learning telephone technique late noon.. It was quite useful though and got to attend a pratical lesson on coming wednesday.. I think the only barrier of me greet in telephone is my confidence ba.. Still cant get myself to says out the whole introduction when picking up calls... and i dislikes picking up calls!! cuz i afraid i cant handle the call... what a response rite? After 6 months of working in ward 10, i m still not confidence of answering calls... i will definitely try to escape if i can.. haa... haiz.. but i cant hide forever sia.... gota practice more and more.. some more have telephone audit.. sometime too gan chiong till i tongue twist sia... haa... alamak..

Heard from griselda that she will be taking year 2.2 for clinical on the 15th january 2007.. and will be posted to ward 11.. well my ward will always be NYPs or NPs cuz mainly is orthopeadic discipline.. more specialised.. glad to hear that.. but will hEr's will attach to AH also? or staying in campus leh? If she is in AH, i felt that my days past very fast cuz everyday look forward to see or meet her somewhere.. Then i will tend to have better food in a sense not much maggie ba as i will be motivated to go canteen to eat... haha.. sound ridiculous hor.. cuz mostly i get to meet her is in canteen as we are in different ward.. really envy devi in ward 4 cuz most of the time she is there with the students..

Haiz, it seems that i will misses her the most on the alternate month.. miss seeing her.. so at times i will purposely messages her to ask her some questions den keep her reply... we still keep in contact every 2 weeks... but this month i tell myself not to disturb her so 3 weeks nv message her le.. I have realised that i've been indulging myself too much into hEr's le.. too much love and passion put on her... was i thinking izit due to haven reach the stage that i always wanted or demanding too much? Compared to previous still as a student, i used to update her my family stuffs as often when i get to meet her but now when we meet up, i didnt update her that much anymore instead we catch up on other topics like her students and her colleagues...

I really felt i am drifting more away from my mother.. even she was feeling sick now, i didnt concerned her that much.. but as usual she will small things like drinking cough syrup in front of me to tell me that she is having cough.. she dont have to do all these things as i already know she was sick.. but she just likes doing it... instead i felt it was quite irritating though.. i knw my mother too well le.. show her too much attention will only makes myself uncomfortable..

Haiz whatever it is, at times i still feel i m lack of having mother loves cuz i m unable to reach her whenever i want to... but after meeting her, i was filled with mother love again...

Heng xiang ni wor... my future god-mum.. kee....