Friday, April 06, 2007
Last blogged @ 4/06/2007 10:49:00 PM

CoNtInuAl BlEssiNgs fRm God...

I've got a place in nanyang polytechnic!! but it was told that most probably is October intake instead of April intake... Upon hearing it, my excitement went down a little.. It will always sound all right to work for another 6 more months if it is october intake... but to me, money wasnt matter much to me.. I wanted much to leave this ward because there is so much of physical n mentally strains.. At times, i felt being dragged to work... I myself motivated in this ward is not enough because it needed all the staffs to have the right attitude and teamwork to make it a pleasant working environment..

I was granted a day off today as i requested earlier week.. Then my nursing officer called me up for work cuz 2 colleagues was not able to work n was really shortage of staffs.. But i did not agree to it because i want to commit my time to God instead of my work.. Although Lydia was not able to come and attend the timeless drama with me, i still went to watch the drama alone but thanks god that i met my cell members n sitted together with them... As sarah said i look troubled... Yes i admitted that i felt kind of down and sad.. The word"forsake" keeps appearing in my mind whenever i thinks of hEr's.. Although she was a believer, but she draws a far distance from God and i wanted to something to it and help her.. Throughout the day, i felt very heavy within me.. My mind filled with doubts and puzzled... As a lover of her, i already felt sad, let alone God!! God's love for hEr's is never to be compared!!! As to console, i remembered that God is in control and has its purpose..

I started to query bout my posessions towards her again.... I surely knows that after knwing God, i started to letting go bit by bit as to always keep occupied with stuffs and committment to God.. But my love for hEr's seems to be even more deeper... As currently, God is my first priority and second is hEr's..