Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Last blogged @ 10/23/2007 10:44:00 PM

Haiz, yesterday MC for school... sudden attack of lower abdomen squeezing pain during my journey to ang mo kio... pain till i was having cold sweat and feeling cold on my face.. it is really terrible.. My ever first time torment during in the bus journey!! My mind kept thinking that going to toilet is only the solution as i just hope to tolerate till I alight.. As I alight, i only managed to walk a few steps cuz the pain was really tormenting and I literally squat down near a pillar in the public.. Surprisingly, no one came to me and see what happen to me... probably I am small size lo!! Everyone walk pass me just precisely walk through and i only get to see many legs and shoes up and down.. Was experiencing syncope(fainting like).. I really wanted to cry and ask for help but I was physically very weak and thought that someone may help me but none.. Then suddenly I saw a guy standing up beside me and I thought he was looking at me and so I turned up.. Guess wat? He was looking at the notices on the wall!!! and he left!!!

Thank God that I do not need to squat down for long... I try to get up in 5 minutes time and ask God for strength to help me to the nearest Mrt toilet.. Thank God I did not faint upon walking to toilet and successfully sit at the toilet bowl for quite some time and was feeling very drowsy and pain too... I know i need help somehow as i cant stuck in toilet for long and so Wan ying appeared in my mind.. give her a message and thank God that she is able to come to help me!! i feel quite bad of waking her up so early in the morning but I got no choice... She helped me to a private clinic and help me pay the consultation fees first... I am truly touched... Really thanks to wan ying for coming down to help me if not I will not have energy and money to all the things..

After I reached home, the diarrhoea stopped... Very amazing wor.. but feeling slight of giddiness.. Praise God for the complete healing!!!

I have a feeling that God wanted me to see something out of my sudden happening... especially when no one notice me when i was squatting down... was still recalling the incident on and off.. I am thanksful that I am child of God.. the kind of comfort while in pain and assurance when no one comes to help me... I remembered that i kept calling out to God...

I love God, Abba Father very much! I am learning to be fully dependent on God cuz He can fully use me when I am weak... Praise The Lord!!...