Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Last blogged @ 10/10/2007 11:01:00 PM

Oh.... I got back my blog again!!....

wah.... it been 6 months since I last blogged!!! Been wanting to update after which, but my password is invalid.. so I thought it may be good for me not to blog..

Surely, these 6 months, many things happened... Being blessed althought bad things still happens... To summarize it:

1) I was comissioned as Spiritual Parent on late June'07,
2) Had lead Wan Ying to Christ on the 31st July'07,
3) Had a felt and little exposure experience of being a preceptor to Wan Ying,
4) Being awarded Service Excellent for the first time in AH that comes with a Gold staff card,
5) Finally get to enrolled in NYP and starting sch on 15th Oct'07,
6) Had left ward 10 on 3rd Oct.

Before I started to blog again, I was praying and seek God's presence in my room.. I felt slight emotional.. Felt a little lost in my heart.. And again, i was reassured by His faithful love..!

Recently, someone entered my life and from her, I experience wholly love.. She used to be my preceptee and junior colleague.. BUT, in these 6 months of our friendship bond, she became my dearest as in sister.. Every time of our closeness, it reminds me of Lydia.. In my heart, Lydia's is a very important person to me because she is God gift to me!! My love in regards to her is motherly love and understanding which I and God knows that I could never experience again from my mother's.

As i recalled, when the nursing management told me that I will start school on October, i felt kind of disappointed because of the hectic workplace i worked in..Well, God spoke to me that he had a purpose for it.. And it will be another 6 months of working before i go for studies..

Then that's when I met My Dear Wan Ying!! Amazingly, i was drawn to her and started conversation with her.. Seeing her fear, worries and uncertainty mades me even want to guide her in ward.. One of the day, both of us were called by one of our senior staff nurse to help her do some stuffs and we agreed to stay back after work.. And my senior staff nurse was a christian, so we strike off talking about church stuffs.. And get to know from wan ying that she actually went to catholic church before and she wanted to convert to christian quite much.. And from there, we started to have bonding like hang out after work, bring her to my church for service, bring her to my cell group.. And surprisingly, we only known for 1 month plus that I was honoured to lead her to Christ!! Being a Spiritual Parent to her, I felt a strong sense of responsibilty to guide her in proper way althought i was only a 10months christian... Thanks God that I see her spiritual growth in these 3 months and her faith, love for God has grown deeper tremendously!! Actually from her, I have learnt a lot too.. Cause at times i can be very possessive over a person especially she is my first spiritual baby that i am great worrier at most times.. especially when she is sick and weak.. I was once again being reminded by my cell sister, Eileen that to commit wan ying to Lord's hand as everything belongs to God's not me...

Through these periods of naturing her, I grown to love her more deeper than i know myself... To the extend that i would feel down and sianz if she off that day... I will look forward to see her everyday in work and will make effort to pray with her before we starts work.. As i have realised i had only a few months in ward before i go school, i decided to spend more time with her.. I have gone beyond my boundaries at lots of time just for her... to accompany her to see doctor when she sick, for medical appointment and take bus with her to her place... For all the things i have done for her, not because i wanted praises, is because i hope she could experience the real love as a sister to her and to know all things happen because there's a God who loves her so much.. Because of God, he gave me wan ying for surviving in the ward and extra capacity to love wan ying as much as i do or as much as i love Lydia...

I felt sad to leave the ward because of wan ying.. but i know everything happen has its good cause... I missed and loved her even more... I treasured every of our meet up and how i wished i could see her every day.. ( to you: i really wished i could assured you with love every day but only afraid that you may find it dull..)

I am glad that i met her today.. And i asked her this question that does her feeling towards her boyfriend still strong as ever? she said yes... well.. i am definitely glad to hear that... but on the other side of me, i felt taken back... i dunno why.. i shouldn't have these thoughts but i just felt emotional after departed with her... I tears in God's presence.. He reminded me of my weakness which is my possessiveness.. I guess no one can understand how depth the love for her is except for God??

Getting sleepy... blessed nite...