Saturday, November 03, 2007
Last blogged @ 11/03/2007 11:45:00 PM

Heyya! I'am back again.... been occupied these few days.. Basically been occupied with my driving lesson cuz wanted to complete the stages by end of October and by His grace, i finally completed stage 5 on 31th oct!!! Because it was a mock driving test on stage 5, I actually mount kerb when doing a sharp left turn and that is a immediate failure!! The instructor also put a tick in immediate failure box and so i said: " so i need to repeat my stage 5 right?" And he asked me to look behind of my reporting slip that he actually passed my stage 5!! Although it is by men's ticking, but it is REALLY GOD GRACE!!! If not i would need to repeat my stage 5 again... God promise to me that I could finish all the stages by 31th October came to reality!! Now i need to go for 2 more revisions and there goes my driving test.. Felt kinda anxious but I have learnt once again to trust God wholly and really leave everything in His hand.. As what i have learnt at the tenet class from exploring philippians that example of trusting God is: Just like my relationship with my dua kong that I know she had abilities and capablities that i can entrust my problems to her without doubting her at all... But of course need to know the person characteristic.. Being a christian is just like being to know God character more and more deeper.. Becoming holy and righteousness is a very natural for us to present once God starts to work in me and i dont really have to be super concern about how i present to others.. people can testifies the changes and differences..

Anyway, completed "exploring philippians" tonight.. went for DEW on thursday.. My counselor helps me to deal with emotions with many people.. God had reveal many people and I forgive and bless each one of them by their names from primary to ITE... Awesome isnt it?? ....!!! Coming end of the session a smy counselor close in prayers, I saw myself being carried by a White Eagle flying over many mountains and the sky and the vision i had is about 3 mins.. Well, i have never seen a white eagle before or probably is a dove but anyway it really looks like an eagle with big wings... Even my counselor was thrilled to hear that this vision and was asking white eagle?? And we laugh!! I am thanksful for having a good counselor as she gave me a warmth feeling of love... cuz every end of session, she would gave me a hug and i see tears in her eyes... And i realise she look quite of Lydia... Well, hope to see katrina more often at church ya..

Today service, went out for altar call.. I was prayed by Pastor John.. Through his prayer, God spoke to me very clearly that He treaured and loved me very much as His precious daughter.. That I will begin to walk with Him more deeply and will eventually understand and reveals 'Abba Father' love for me... what more can i say as I am already loved by my God so much that I am His precious daughter! Well... I tremble at His words speaks thru Pastor John and cried in humility that God had always loved me even when I was ignorant of Jesus Christ and keeps thinking how can there be only one God? Well, there can be so called other "gods" but only Jesus Christ and Father able to love people to the very extent which so called other "gods" cannot provide and often leads to confusion and emptiness..

I think now God is using me to touch peoples' lives as what Pastor John prayed... And frankly speaking that's what I am doing now.. I felt God's heart every day and do what the Lord prompt my heart to do.. This is meant by Christianity Living of just to love God and love everyone by His love being poured out to me first...

"Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Than you will be able to test and approve what God's will is - his good, pleasing and perfect will." Roman 12:2