Sunday, February 24, 2008
Last blogged @ 2/24/2008 09:38:00 PM

Oh.. A weekend ended jus so fast!! probably i was occupied with stuffs that's why... :D Well... a thought came to my mind yesterday about my current lifestyle.. It brings me back to memories that my weekends used to be quite boring if no dates with friends and would be simply stay at home to rot.. finds that meaningless and even fear of having weekends... haha.. i wonder do u have this feeling also?? Or probably jus me... haha... BUT now, it changes so much being God's beloved child... :) Now my weekends are belongs to God and in church... I enjoyed it so much that i always look forward to my every weekends... As i recalled, when i just received Jesus Christ, the thoughts of going to church every weekend is scary and is like i need to go because i am a christian already!?? And i am sure until these days, this perception still linger in our mind of what we see Christians today!!..

I still remembered the first service i went as a christian was like WOW!!... Not the environment but is the worship that touches my heart... The songs that was sung was very touching as if i felt the lyrics was speaking to me.. I tears.. I didnt know exactly why i tears but this was the first experience i encounter so deep in my heart that i tell myself i want to worship this kind of God... Since then, i will always make an effort to attend service and listen to pastors' preaching about life with God.. As i attend more and more services on weekend, i realized my purpose of surviving in this earth is not mainly just enjoying life pleasures to the fullest, or to strive hard to get what i hope or want or to just have a good and close relationship with a boyfriend and settle down, married.. It is more than that! And actually seeking all these is normal BUT we will be tired and weary at the end of a period or after some difficulties and trials... I've been thru b4 and always got very depressed and at times really tired of living... i have thoughts of suicidal b4 but in the end i didnt have the courage...

As God created each one of us by work of His hands and it really grieve Him to see His children not realizing it and had seek alternatives for peace..

The end time are really very soon as that will mean Jesus Christ coming to earth the second time.. And His purpose of coming down from heaven again is to bring back ALL His saved children to God the Father to enjoy the eternal(life after death not floating spirit wandered in another world) life in heaven.. And those who are unsaved or rejected God on His coming will need to go thru very hard and sufferings time as written in the bible...

And therefore, all christians carries the heart of God to help directing people of all nations back to the Father and also make known the gospel(good news) to people who have not yet been saved...

Even till today, i am still so amazed how God can used me as an individual to do His work and still carries the joy while i was in trials... He is really faithful and true.. I am truly nothing without Him.. What i am today is the person that God mould me as... If it is your desire to have a new life, a life with full joyness and be a better person, He is the only one that can change your inner self... I can testify in the life of myself... :)

Oh... i suddenly remember that i came to blog becuz tot of blogging my thoughts about tml clinical placement... But in the end i talk about end time... haha.. It is really God la that annoint my fingers and thoughts to start the blog... interesting ya... :) Ya... here goes my clinical placement tml... not excited but haiz.... 3 weeks holiday gone.... what to do??..... :)