Sunday, April 27, 2008
Last blogged @ 4/27/2008 06:53:00 PM

It had been 2 weeks of studying.. As i look back of these 2 weeks, I have realized that i have not touched on anything about my lectures notes... hm... well, basically, i've been meeting freshmens from the surveyors Campus Crusade for Christ had done during the 2 days of clubcrawl.. I thank God that I am able to contact the 10 names that was given. Have met 7 of them at different timing using the break times... Even though it may sound like very busy with all these, but overall i find it very fulfilling despite that i may not have proper meals.. I really realized that I love people regardless of Christians or non-christians.. I was amazed how God can used me to love His people especially of differently thinking...

When before i became Christian, i used to think that loving 1 person can be quite difficult at times and it already occupied the whole of my heart. Especially one of my ex bf. I used to love him with all my mind, strength to the extend that my heart does not have space for my family n friends... but of course will still say i love my family. In fact, it is a lie cuz my whole heart was on him only, to make him happy and hope we may last... No wonder, in chinese says: "Zhong Se Qing You" pardon me if my hanyu pinyin was not so right... :P Now i see a clearer picture. Of course i was being condemned by some of my friends before when i was in passion with my ex bf...

There's a point of time, this verse jump in my heart, "Love the Lord Your God with all your heart, and with all your mind, and with all your soul." Immediately, I asked myself how could i do it??? Seems like big committment again!! haha... But this time round, at the back of my mind was a person that I love very much who is my ITE nursing lecturer that lead me to Christ. And i do admitted that i love her more than God. But i know God does not intend my life to be this way.. So I told God, i would like to love Him with all my heart, with all my mind and with all my soul. But i need God help because i really want to know and love God more each day and want to know what purpose He had for me as He created me.

True enough, in a amazing way, God answered my prayer. I slowly to fall in love with God and starts to participate in church activities and attend service regularly. There are too many amazing personal encounter with God the Father that I cried for many times. Initially, i thought the process may be tough or may tear me apart... BUT, God help me in His gentle way that i didnt really realize that i had overcome it. As i received feedbacks from friends, they told me i seems to love God more, mention everything about God and didnt really get to hear Her name anymore.. i was like WOW!!

Having to set our heart right and only for Jesus is the only right way no matter what relationship we are having. Only when we fully surrender to God of ALL things in our life, He will then arrange it according to his will's and plan so nicely that no man can ever do that... That's explain why also many Christians loved Jesus and there is such joy and peace in their hearts whatever situations they are facing.

I just bought a VCD about the days of Noah. It was an eye-opener that how fortunate now the generation be.. After watching it, God spoke to me that Jesus ressurection is to redeem mankind from the End Time tribulation. It is not the idea of just christians want to convert people to Christians. God really really yearns a relationship with us as individuals regardless of races or tribes... He is a heavenly Father that is beyond our earthly father. He had already provided us a way to connect and be close to Him thru Jesus Christ, but yet still many people choose not to receive it due to many circumstances.

Time is running out already as what God often told me in the journal... Tiredness has bind many of us including myself... As often i would say that I am tired... But i am very thanksful that Jesus is my source of strength whenever i needs Him. Only His strength would last. Many things are changing and happening that are written in the bible of Revealation, Matthew 24, Mark 13.

The place of Heaven is ready. But not all will enter His Holy place because many denied Jesus.
I pray that God will soften many hearts of the unbeliefs and pour out His power unto Christians to lead people back to God kingdom in Heaven.

I love Jesus.