Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Last blogged @ 6/10/2008 12:36:00 AM

Here I am blogging..

Was kinda feeling down just now around 2100 plus.. Close my door and went down on my knee and pray... I was crying deep from my heart... Yes.. Is burdens in my heart... Even though God said to me that He is using me to lead spiritual lives and as His messengers, I felt useless and lost of a sudden... God has placed different ones and yet challenging issues to me... The people that I am facing now are all christians... All are facing issues and problems of different kinds... My heart broke... I am sure God heart is even more heartbroken than i do...

Frankly speaking, as right now I am indeed very focus on God works and it is not easy either... BUT, I am still very honoured and happy to take up His high calling for me... But of course not all christians will walk the same as me la... I still never regret of my obedience to God calling despite of multiple calling... I love God! As long as I hold on to Jesus, put all my trust in Him, all my faith in Him, He would carry me thru.. He promised in the bible.

Whenever I had a hint of giving up, Holy spirit will always remind me that Jesus is coming very soon... Do not give up! And i know for whatever I do or say for God's sake, He will see it and my rewards are in Heaven waiting for me to receive...

Leading spiritual lives means: to lead God's people with His words, truth under the presence of Holy spirit. To encourage, love them for who they are. to spur love in Christ. Is totally different to lead people from a world perspective.

Humble is the key word; to me right now. I will never know enough bout God cuz He is so Holy and High. I am learning more of Him every single day. And what i know is that I am Loving Him deeper every single day. I am waiting for His glorious coming. Really.

How i wish Jesus would come even sooner than God planned. But i knew God still desire more people to get saved in order to bring an end to the world. And thru this realization, God is really very merciful to many people in the world who rejected Him or not known the gospel yet. An awakening call to all Christians in the world!! Let's God's love flood in every human being hearts!! There's no time to wait anymore... Go all out... Matt 28:18-20.