Friday, August 22, 2008
Last blogged @ 8/22/2008 05:59:00 PM

Hey i am back again!! Finally my paper ended today!! well, this pharmacology paper is quite easy provided that got really study la... Not bad, i quite like pharmacology now... haha... :D

Yesterday is a special day for me.... I finally get to meet Lydia (ex-ITE lecturer) who's very close to my heart... Her birthday is tml and these 2 years i've been hoping and praying that ONE day we can meet out for dinner and celebrate her birthday... Then God answered my prayer!! Actually she also told me yesterday was quite a good day as in not much meeting and stuffs, if not the rest of this week, she will be very busy.... After which, i know it is God divine arrangement... haha... Supposingly i should be staying at home doing revision but i choose to go and meet her at simei ITE campus... Then somemore so long nv see her liao, missed her sooo much!! Since from we met, we crap, laugh, joke until she sent me back home... I really enjoyed very very much with her... She also shared with me more about her personal life as in her mum, daughter, her workload, work, friend and etc... and of course we talk about our God....

After the meeting, i realized that i love her more.... i sense that our relationship has grown deeper and we can like talk almos anything under the sun... I thanks God that He is the one helps us grow deeper in love and both us treasured one another alot... As i think back, there's lot of restriction when i was still a student while she is my lecturer... I can tell her alot of my things but not her... I used to love her with wrong motives is all because i thought i can always rely on her and see her only soooo important in my life and no one else.. And it result in i m giving a lot of pressure for myself and her also... Actually to the extent, she can choose to ignore me or treat me cold shoulder... but she didnt... instead she still concern bout me and i can feel her love for me... and because of these, i am touched by her love and concern and come to know about God once again...

After knowing God for a while, i began to realized i shouldnt rely on her as it is not what God intend me to hold on to... He wants me to rely on him totally because He knows Man will fails Man. I did not take it seriously because i cant put down but until a day a verse came popping to me that i decided to let go and let God handle it... It is not easy. As i am a very stronghold person. If i love someone, i would be very persistent...

Just as God transforming my life, i began to love Him more each day and lesser for her. And my motive towards her becomes more healthier and with correct attitudes... Really thanks God for His work in me... So right now, i love her even more but is sister's love. Both of us are God's children and we ought to love one another.. She is still important to me because God has given her into my life for greater joy. Hope to meet her more often so that we can crap somemore!!! haha..

All right, got to go for cell group meeting le... with blessings... :D