Sunday, August 30, 2009
Last blogged @ 8/30/2009 01:29:00 AM

It's been 2 days after exam... and yes, i regain freedom again!! wohooo....!!!

Thanks a million to Vanessa my dear sista for making this blog possible again... haha... Thank you much much!! :D

Honestly speaking, i am really not into blogger template thingy... I tried to change my blog skin BUT in the end... it became a laughing stock!! Full of words and symbols seems like cursing me instead!! haha... really funny....

ok...

Been feeling a bit overwhelm lately.... My cellgroup planning... people... and many more concerns...

As I was praying and asking Jesus to show me why i am feeling uneasy..... He showed me a small pool of clear water and I didnt dare to look at it. A lot of fear came in... dunno why.. Then after which, the Lord asked me: "why am I afraid to see myself in the clear water?". "there has been a lot of fear within you". As i start to think deeper... Lord revealed to me again of 2 things: fear of darkness and fear of failure. And yes... Immediately I acknowledge it!

I began to submit all the names that i have been concerning in my life about... mainly people...

And now i felt much more peaceful and lighter. No more feeling sense of a lost sheep.

I've encountered Jesus again in such a beautiful way. He reminded me Psalm 23, a popular Psalm.

Thank you my Lord Jesus! Thank you for renewing my heart again. Now i feel that my heart is beating nicely again. How real you are to me each time.

You are like a close friend inside of me that will never leave me or misunderstand me. As you revealed my weakness, You restored me again. When I felt unclean and sinned badly against you, You are always gentle and loving speaking to me. You have never said to me that I am such a failure. Instead because of your gentleness and kindness, I've seen and experience Your grace and mercy on me which i know i dont deserve it at all. But You chose to lavish on me. What more can I say to you Jesus?

I just cannot stop loving you each time. And each time loving you deeper than ever. That's why your love is everlasting till eternity. Lord Jesus, xie xie ni.

Signing off with love.
Bless.