Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Last blogged @ 10/14/2009 01:03:00 AM

Well... Times passes fast... 2 more weeks to my geron posting...

These 2 weeks mainly slack and relax!! Which I dont have the luxury most of the time... But thanks God for this 1 month holiday!! It is really a holiday for me... Why I would said so as if I sounds like I do not have it previously...

In Year 2, I was greatly involved in campus crusade busy serving as Spiritual Multiplier(SM) and Servant Team in Evangelistic Comm. Being as a SM is very occupied because I need to prepare the topics to teach once every week with my disciples. And plus needed to take out time to spend personal time with individuals. And serving as a ST, there are many meetings together with the staff team to discuss and plan for the semester ahead or evaluation. And mostly it is done during our holiday... and that is the reason why i dont really can enjoy the 1 month holiday luxury.

I stepped down serving as ST this year and the decision is given by God himself. And interestingly, he already told me to do so when I just newly appointed as ST. So i was thinking if it is true, God will surely speaks to me again. And yes, God's words stands. And even the team leader allows me to do so with peace.

But well, am still serving as SM. As this is what God wants me to continue in to nurture the girls that He puts in my hands. Since He trusted me much, I should give my best unto the Lord to nurture them even though is tough also. Glad that 2 girls decides to continue this DG and the rest still havent yet decide.

Also been doing much QT recently. I prayed a prayer before unto God that He would help me be diligent in spending time with him. I lack of discipline. And so God is right now helping me. The feeling is funny because i yearn to spend time in His word and prayer. But somehow, i would feel so called "relunctant" when the environment is prepared. And that is why I understand that I do not do things that I ought to do but do things that I not ought to do. There is always an spiritual warfare going on that is unseen.

I am thanksful that God has been faithfully speaking to me in His words and through His audible voice. He is guiding me in the path He meant for me. At the same time, He is also revealing my true self from deep within that i was surprisingly see it as foreign to me. Means to say i dont see myself as what God reveals to me. But God just told me gently that yes it is my true self. But at the same time He gave me time to digest and also uses His word to bring clearer picture to me. I thanksful that He is so patience with me and showing me step by step. If God were to throw everything to me at one go, i think I wouldnt be able to understand either. Yea, He is unfolding His plan for me day by day. And i just need to be faithful by sitting under Jesus feet to listen and learn.

I want this holiday to spend with much fruitfulness and enjoyment!!! For this is my prayer. I do not want to look back at this holiday with much regrets. As my soul rest in God, i pray that my passion and love for God will be renewed again and His fire be re-ignite once again!

I missed people in my life!! Lydia Lau, Alfred, my DG girls and etc.... May my life be as colourful as rainbow!!! Hahah!!!

Loving you each moment.

Blessings...