Friday, February 19, 2010
Last blogged @ 2/19/2010 12:37:00 AM

1 more week to go....

As the date is approaching the end of my prcp, i am getting worried.. I am having 2nd thought about working in ward 4..

Right now, things doesnt seem good for me at the moment. I felt my work and ministry like falling apart... On the outside things may appear normal but deep within me i felt terrible... A lot of factors that causing me to feel this way..

I began to realise that I do not want to be entertained or I entertain people.. I also started to see things negatively.. Still been complaining about the ward sister... Lost the sense of hope and joy suddenly.. It is really a dark and scary period for me...

But also i realized it is a strong spiritual warfare.. I felt as like i m in the danger of falling into great depression anytime... As now, it is only a mild one... Feels like crying more these few days.. Got easily frustrated and unhappy over little things..

At a lost... I know God's light is always there for me but it seems like I couldnt see it and stuck.

I only know I just got to hang on to God alone and He is my only guide and leader of my next step.

Hopefully this dark period wouldnt stay for long... My heart feel tired suddenly..

I need a revival. Jesus I need you.